Accepting my Balance

I know I’ve mentioned it before in probably half of my posts.  Life is busy… I don’t have a lot of time to be writing on my blog.  That’s not to say I don’t miss writing on my blog.

Just to catch you up on what we’ve been doing – Girl Scouts (Maria & myself – including selling cookies), Gymnastics (Maria is in a class, while Charlie & I go to parent & toddler class), Skating lessons for Maria, new(ish) job for Chad, growing pains (Maria), preparing for milestones (Charlie – big boy bed, potty training, turning 3!), transitions at work, and starting to think about what to do for a job that is scheduled to move an additional 40 minutes away from my home in a year.

It’s frankly a lot.  And even at work we talk a lot about work-life balance. And I’m working on it. I’m working on finding my passion at work and feeling valued.  I think the transitions at work will help with that, but it is going to be up to me with what I put into those transitions.  I also need to make sure I don’t get sucked back into my own role of saying yes whenever someone needs help, just because it would be easier for the people asking if I said yes. It often sets me back from the direction I am going in, and I don’t always easily get back on course.

And at home, accepting the balance. I think I’m a little out of balance right now. I’m over-committed. And I think Maria may be too. I want my kids to have lots of experiences.  But I think right now with our work schedules and the amount of time we are away from home, we don’t need to commit to being gone more than that.  I’m going to fight through the end of February.  Get the kids through this session of gymnastics, and bring back some consistency to our weeknights.

But really, I’m learning at all of this right now. Life keeps changing, so I need to also be ready for adjustments.

 

 

Another Big Change

So another big change on the horizon for our family.  I accepted a new job today to start the end of the month.

Looking forward to working for a large Minnesota based retailer!  One that I worked at previously as a contractor and will now be a full-time team member.. Time to invest in some red & khaki!

I have been struggling with which direction to take in my career.  I knew if I want to make the next big step and get some serious experience doing IT business analysis, that I’d probably make the leap into 40 hour weeks and a bigger company.  Consulting wasn’t getting me to the next big place in my career, and the flexibility was limited, therefore not being completely flexible.  I did consider a job that would pay well with good benefits and could probably be as little as 25 hours a week, but the JOB sounded a bit boring and would not help me move ahead in my career.  I know family is more important than career, but there is also that saying “happy momma makes everyone happy”  and if I didn’t like what I was doing 3 days a week, I know it would catch up with me elsewhere… Plus working 40 hours means hopefully splurging on things that will make life more enjoyable… (I’m thinking groceries delivered to my door and a house cleaner!)

So I did it, and I’m excited.  12 days left of consulting then a week off, before plunging into the world of bullseyes, red & khaki!

Back to Work

So I am officially back to work. I even got a small paycheck for the last week of May. That is probably the highlight of being back at work. Although I do admit that I do like the adult interaction and even some of the actual work.

What I don’t like is the commute and my short evenings with my family. I know it will get better and our routine will solidify as the weeks go by. But right now Maria seems to just act out all evening. Poor Charlie comes home tired and is either fussy or sleeping. And me: I’m tired too. Somehow 1-2 night feedings aren’t so exhausting when I don’t have to work 8 hours a day. And on top of that there are potty breaks from Maria at least once a night. (Along with other requests for snacks and pillowcase straightenings).

Sorry to complain. Just a struggle right now. And an explanation as to why you haven’t heard from me lately.

I will leave you with a couple pictures of what keepsme going courtesy of my iPhone which is allowing me to post this over lunch!

Catchup

Up To:

Went back to work on Tuesday. I found a short contract position working for a company that I previously worked at for a few months. It makes a nice transition to go back to some place familiar, even if it had been almost 2 years!

Baby:

I am now 31 weeks pregnant and not always sure how I will make it through the next 9 weeks!  Feeling huge.  Plus if I do too much (i.e. walk, pick up Maria, spend too much time on my feet, combination of any of the above) I sometimes have contractions which reminds me to slow down.  Last week was hard, because Chad was out of town, but we survived and he is now home for at least 2 weeks.

Maria:

She is definitely 2.  The last few weeks she is all about being independent and making decisions. This mostly comes in the form of not listening when she doesn’t want to hear what we have to say, especially at bed time.  We struggle with this, especially knowing that I shouldn’t be picking her up. But a time out only stalls bed time which is exactly what she wants…

She does love to help and when I sat at the bottom of the stairs to rest last week, she held my legs and told me she wouldn’t let me fall… 🙂

Chad:

He’s on vacation for 2 weeks.  and I am jealous.

Here are some pictures from making cookies yesterday. Maria only stayed interested until I let her use the rolling pin and then she was off to play and wait for Lilah to come over to play. Today I am frosting them and we’ll see if she’s interested in that… 🙂

Baking Christmas Cookies

Baking Christmas Cookies

Baking Christmas Cookies

Hiatus

So yes, I’ve been shirking my duties as the dutiful blogger I want to be.  I apologize, but November gets soo hectic!

Since my last post, I went on the Hudson Tour of Homes with Sarah, had a playdate / Packer watching afternoon with my friend Lana, celebrated Thanksgiving with the family, got up early for a few Black Friday doorbusters (which I doubt I will ever do again), made lefse with my mom and celebrated Chad’s birthday.  And pretty much completed my Christmas shopping!

Plus I’ve been cleaning out closets, the backroom and garage.  Got rid of some good garage clutter using Craigslist. Sold 2 boxes of books at the used book store. And took 3 boxes to Goodwill.  Currently I’m working on finding someone or an organization that would want a bunch of my fabric.  And getting our old hideabed hauled away.

Today, I finished up at my contract at Target Corp.  I was there over 21 months, so it was a little surreal to leave and not know what I am going to do next.  I will be on the bench and my company will continue to pay me while they try to find me a position.  Of course, things are a little limited with my due date being mid-Feb, plus this time of year it’s just hard to find new contracts.

This weekend besides getting things organized with the new bed, I’m hoping we get the tree and decorations up for Christmas. Maria has been so excited and playing with her Fisher Price Nativity Set and her Mix and Match Christmas Book.  (Both are toys I highly recommend for toddlers and would make excellent gifts!)    She also is obsessed with Christmas lights and talks about Santa coming in through the fireplace!  What a wonderful time of  year!

I will try to be better about keeping up with my blog now.  Especially if work is a little slow, I really have no excuse, right?!

Creating Work

Work has been a little slow the last week or so.  It is leaving me a little unsettled as my contract ends on 12/5, so I am guessing an extension is probably not happening.  (Thankful I am a full-time employee for the company I consult through!)

As it is, I am trying to download download download and document!  I have been at this position for about 21 months and learned a LOT!  So now I am working on creating documentation for the team (and people we support) from the stuff I have collected and devised in my head.  None of which I have been specifically asked to do, but things I know that will be a positive for the people I work with whenever I make my exit.

Plus I also need to update my resume and gather some evidence examples of things I’ve worked on and created while on the job here!

As much as things are slow, I am really trying to focus on adding value to the team while not boring myself with my own brain-dump!

It doesn’t help that I obviously have a few other things going on (hello 2  year old, 25 weeks pregnant and serious nesting!)